Dreams are Ours for Life

Well, my school holiday officially starts at 00:00 in the morning.

So...I have decided to write another short story for my delusive blog.

But it will take some time 'cause I have paintings to finish and dresses to design

within this '11 days of utter freedom'.

But I love what I do. I really do.

Drawing. Painting. Designing. Composing. Photography-ing.

And some other activities I like to indulge in.

They all mean a lot to me and if someone comes up and say to me, right in the face,

"You're not cut out for it."

"You can't."

"Stop wasting your time."

"Go study."

"Stop being so childish."

Haha...I will really list them as 'dead' in my mental notebook.

And I can be very cruelly cold if I'm angry. Like seriously angry.

So what if I don't have the natural talent for something.

Does it mean I can't fall in love with it?

Or does it mean I should just keep quiet and listen to whatever people say

just because not everyone are born with the genius ability
to SUDDENLY know how to play an instrument?

 

Having dreams have no conditions.

They are ours to follow and pursue it as far and infinite as we like.

People can say what they think,

but they can never say what is right for you.

Only you know that...

because...

after all,

you grew up with yourself ever since the day you ever existed.

So you know yourself the best.

Logic? ^_^

Once its one, Two isn't that Far

Maybe grades don't matter too much that you'll have to give up your fun life for it but recently, I've just got back a few of my examination scores and I wasn't all too delighted about them. I mean, to my friends and all, they are pretty good but not the perfect scores that I desire so much. I'm not a perfectionist; my sister is. It didn't used to matter so much before but once I got a taste of the A+ scores some years ago nothing could ever caused me such simple pleasing. I'm afraid that if I continue this way. My balanced, good-natured self shall waver under pressure and I'll end up putting up a heavier guard towards my friends and my families. I don't want that to happen but it feels so...necessary, that I tend to forget things from time to times.

School Camp? Really?

For the first time in my life, I'm actually going to join a school camp.
Well, I am excited of course but then, I'm pretty anxious by the late. My aunt never lets me go any camping trips. This is the first since it's held in the school and the school is just right behind my home after all. I never thought of joining this camp but I thought..., why not? It'd help my independence.
But, I really, really can't imagine how I'm going to survive, away from my supplies and security. Most people would agree that I should go because if not, then I would really become some sort of pampered house-kept lady! Ugh...I feel a little sick.
The weather ain't very stable lately and its continued to catch me off guard. Sigh~
My glucose shooting low too; appetite not working so well. I'm dazing and sleepy.

Don't Ask no.2

Ignore! Ignore! Don't even read my posts. I'm a hypocrite with too much homework to do. But I actually like doing homework though...
I'm never sulking again. How could I ruin the mood for my friends? I'm a hypocrite and certainly not sunny-type. And I only realised my wicked sulking hypocrite self now! After it happened long ago. I'll have to fix this tomorrow in school...

Wicked me, the Observer

I like to think of myself as an absolute observer. Around my friends and strangers alike. Why watch dramas when there's so much to amuse yourself with all around you.
...damn it...I feel so wicked today. Even my last post had some wickedness in its words.

Changes, I say Hello

There's going to be some changes, weather and school social status likewise(grin^_^). And I'm talking about social status, not social standing-there's a difference. I'll make sure to explain it to you guys next time, just not now yet~grin~

Appreciate your Teachers

I can't necessarily say which teacher I dislike or like. Anyhow, even if I do agree with my friends that maybe one of the teachers isn't very good, I certainly hated it whenever they began spouting complaints about a teacher.
A teacher is a teacher and a student is a student. I don't appreciate any one of my classmates complaining everything about a teacher or the school. Honestly, I'm seriously getting bored with their endless antics. If they have so much to complain, then step out and become the teacher. Why do you think I always kept quiet whenever they start complaining about this and that?
Seriously, I am exhausted. But I should be fine as long as no one steps over the line with their idiotic complaints. So just remember, patience is everything. I doubt I can keep my temper in.....really, my classmates should just shut up and be appreciative for the knowledge the teachers are teaching us.
-_-' Although, I have nothing to say for one of my teachers because, it's not like she actually teaches us anything. She comes in and write some stuff on the board and that's it. I'm not lying. That's what she does, all the time. Somehow, I'm finding it a bit strange that we're already through Unit 5 from the textbook when we haven't even opened it before. Won't anyone find it strange?
Other than that particular teacher, I'm pretty okay with the others. But I have a nasty temper so.....we'll have to wait and see, now don't we? ^_^'
Oh, and one more thing, my best friend's an exception. She's not included, 'kay? It's complicated but she's different.

Happiest memory(so far) in my Diary

I showed my teacher the drama script I wrote for the club and well, it was great! She even mentioned me being the director for next year's drama program since we're doing chorus speaking this year.
...it was one of the happiest feelings I've ever experienced and I wanted to tell someone, just anyone. But no one can listen. If I tell my best friend, she might find me to be boasting and that's just gonna be awkward at the end. My aunt? I thought of it but she shot my chance to tell her straight down the drain right after school, when she came to pick me up. Well, actually...that's all, I suppose. I haven't considered anyone else. I'm..just going to have write this down in my diary....~sigh~